Joy, Fear, Love or Pain
I don’t really know why today of all days I feel the need to put things into writing. Yesterday ended the greatest adventure within my production experience, The Best of the Best. The thing is, that because I have been so preoccupied with all that the show has had required of me (time, energy, thought and persistence), I havent really been able to listen to my heart lately. Tonight… for the first time in nearly 5 months, I have been able to be still and listen.
We just had a bunch of great friends come over and eat burgers and sit around a fire, and because of the tremendous amount of school work going on and the fact that I have been exhausted this whole week, I was ready to go back inside and crash. However, for some reason I felt as if I needed to write my paper and go outside. So i took my laptop and headed outside. My roommate left and i looked up at the stars, felt the cool summer breeze sweep in, and a world of emotion kicked in.
yeah. Joy. Fear. Love and Pain.
I don’t know if I can explain all of these emotions in the amount of time that you would actually read… but maybe a cup of coffee would do it justice. I just know that I am in an interesting place, two weeks before graduation where God may be getting ready to do some incredible things with my life. It may be something that will hurt, it may not pay well, it may require me to go somewhere and do something I really don’t want to do. I mean, I am not an expert by any means in my field, but I do think that I have been blessed to have as many experiences as I have.
i don’t really know what this means for you. What sort of Joy are you experiencing? What sort of fear are you feeling? Do you feel love? or are you in the midst of pain?
I do know that all of these feelings lead to allowing us to experience gladness and fullness in life. I think i need to spend some time listening more. Waiting more, and allowing the stillness and quiet to roar louder than the heavens.
until then,
Luke.